What Mask masks?

 

Back to my own space 😊. Thought I won’t be even thinking of this space as life has totally changed. Juggling with many roles after we started our firstlangauge company, I am left with “NIL ME TIME”. Of course, there is no repentance and I dont have rights to repent as all were my own choices. I am learning a lot in this process, shifting many hats in a single day keeps me energized no matter what my emotional/physical state is 😊. Experiencing many emotions in a single day, actually exposes many me to me (Sounding like Nithyanandha ?? 😊)”  Hopefully I will align and churn out as a better person in this process 😊. Setting a side my babbles, would like to come to the point right here. I was just thinking to write on this for long so  pushed all my tasks on queue for a while and wanted to flush out my  tiny  thought about how masks have had their influence on me😊.

When this mask culture started, it was bit irritating. Going to workplace with sanitizers, handwash, spray and yes with this mask felt much odd but not anymore! I don’t know how many of you felt this along with me . wearing a mask is actually advantageous and cover up few things for us and I thought I shud write on that here .

 The sudden chuckles or laughter that pops  up seeing something makes the person around me clueless and baffled 😊 but now my mask can cover this up for me 😊 . I will give you an example. the hoarding that is kept in Guduvanchery ( we cross this place every day while going to college ) on top of a mobile shop having its owner face with a big smile. I don’t know it creates a laughter every time I see that. No, I don’t mean to ridicule that person and of course he looks absolutely  fine but for some reason it evokes laughter. I have showed this to my friend and co faculty, Helen. Even for her, it evoked the same laughter. There is no such happiness in this world, other than seeking a partner in such crimes 😊 many such instances and incidences....  Mask now masks this  for me and the person around me is saved now.  One more instance, every time I see that tamil translation  of State bank of India , the word  பாங்கு (baangu )  for the word “bank ” also does evoke chuckles every time I read it!. They could have  used வங்கி (vangi) ,instead. I don’t know long back I have seen this. maybe they would have changed. no idea.

While travelling in bus on the way to college, I use to plan and think of the upcoming tasks and occasionally I use to voice out my mind voice.! (mind voice nu sathama pesiduven , sorry those who dont understand Tamil. pardon me. this is a famous  Tamil movie dialogue😊)See,  this will also be now masked up by my mask 😊 and the less volume - hummings I do while listening to songs will also now be invisible to ppl around me and they can have some peace of mind 😊 the only botheration is how am I going to handle post pandemic without mask😊. Oh yeah it is not about me and it is the botheration of the ppl around me and I know they will get used to me and that’s how I ‘ve been managed to live all these years 😊.  I Feel so fulfilled that I came here and spilled out  this thought of mine here. Let us keep enjoying the life, in the way we like 😊 and Yes, if you too felt  all this along with me, a big HI-Fi  to you😊.Hope we are all psychologically ok.😊

 

Happy weekend to all and thanks for reading! 😊

Subalalitha

 

 

 

 

Investing on Trust

 

I know it is very squeezing with lot of pending works around but wanted this little detour on my blog to align myself better 😊. Also, work is a never-ending process so forcefully taking a break might increase productivity. That’s what I am hoping for when I will resume to work after publishing this short post. With no further delays, I will reveal the point I had to say. The word, “Trust”! It is just a powerful and an awesome tool. I greatly believe and invest on, “Trust” and of course not on everyone. We build trust on many people in our personal and professional lives.  In this post, I just wanted to narrow it down on the trust that we build with the younger generation. Since I am a teacher by profession, personally and professionally, I meet a lot of younger generation. No matter what, I just blindly believe the younger generation. Starting with my own daughter who is 10-year-old, I always tell her, “I believe in you”. I keep saying this to her and she feels so happy that I trust her and It is a fact to be accepted that the younger generation has a lot of thought clarity than us 😊 Before I meander, I would cite my experience I had a day before with one of the parents of my student.

 

Here it goes. Many students approach me for Letter of Recommendation (LOR) for their master’s degree. It would be surprising to see students  those who even who passed out from college in 2016, will mail me remembering my name. Recently, a student had mailed the Controller of Examination, who is one of the superior bodies of our University, asking for my phone number and I got that mail through our Head of the Department 😊 Happy that they trust me even after many years😊 One recent pleasant shock was from one of my students, Ravi Teja who passed out from college in 2016. He suddenly came to my room and asked me if I remember him. I barely remember anyone these days. With huge number of instances being met and conversed on a daily basis, it is becoming so hard to remember and yes, I will also count my age factor here 😊. He could have told his name but he did not  say that and he was telling all clues to guess him. Sometimes, I remember students for their  notorious attitude 😊 I recognized a student’s name recently, even while we was wearing a mask. He is also a  2016 passed out student. He was surprised and he must be thinking that I have a great memory 😊 😊 😊. The fact is that I would have used his name most frequently to mail his faculty advisor or his parents for his frequent absence  in class😊 😊 😊. Coming back to Ravi Teja, he was speaking for almost more than half an hour but  I did not recognize him and I was already feeling guilty as he got me so much of sweets, chocolates and savouries. Usually this makes me feel so uncomfortable, but we also need to accept from them as they give with so much love and respect and importantly earned from their  hard earned money. He was giving many clues but din get him  and finally made up my mind to ask his name and he said . I told him , yeah then I know you and asked him why  you did not  tell this in the first place 😊 Coz he created a lot of delays in submitting his project reports and he also admitted that he was one of those mischievous  students. He used to be very active is Aarush student club and will not come to class often.  This is one of the sweetest perks that you get in teaching profession. You get so much of unconditional love and respect, and this would add so much meaning to life 😊

 

Yes, I know meandered a lot and I am sorry about it and this is part of my thought process 😊 Actually yes, I wanted to share this particular experience of mine. A parent of a student was constantly in touch with me for getting an  LOR. Usually this does not happen as only students approach me for LOR . I thought the student must be sick or busy with his placements but even amidst busy schedules, students only approach us. I asked her what happened to her son why he is not speaking to me. I was bit disappointed with her reply. She said, “I am not confident about my son that he will finish this process successfully”.  I can’t be harsh on her no matter how I felt inside 😊. I told her you should be the first person to believe your son and even if he makes mistakes in this process, it is ok.  I even told her, "He is going to U.S all alone for his masters degree and you are not ready to believe him for this tiny responsibility”. I don’t think she got convinced as she sent a mail to get my digital signature even after that conversation. This hurt me and this should have hurt the student as well. To err is human and making errors is a continuous process in life and that is what is going to make all of us to grow. It is ok to let the kids to make errors and of course that will have its own cost coming with it and let them undergo that and let them learn from their mistakes. Maybe I am wrong, or Maybe I am right, I am not sure but investing on "Trust" at least on the younger generation will yield great returns and that’s what I strongly believe in.

 

Thanks for reading. Have a great day ahead 😊

Subalalitha

 

 

 

On My Research Experiences on LGBTQIA Community

 

Badly wanted this break. July thru September first week, was much squeezing with all the task deadlines falling in the first week of September. However, there was lot of learning going and I love that. Keeping updated gives me more confidence and at times, neck pain too 😊. I will write in detail about these  tasks on my technical blog soon but will cite them here. (Task#1) Writing a paper with Tamil NLP team, worldwide formed by Bharathi raja from Ireland. My part was very less but I  learnt so much from all the team members and I love working with that team. (Task #2) A proposal had to be written for our School of Computing and I had to coordinate it and needless to say, I have to give top priority for SRM tasks always!  (Task #3) Then there was a request from Dr. Alice Nithya from our Institute to give a hands-on session on, “Reinforcement Learning (RL)”. “Saying no” is generally very difficult for me and for nice people like her, “saying no” can’t be done. I know few RL concepts but never knew to code RL in Python. Through this workshop, I came to know of “Open AI Gym” libraries, and it was a nice experience to give that session on Sep 7th. (Task #4) Then the most important task about which this post is mainly about got included. Writing a paper on “LGBTQIA”. Until the work is published, I can’t write about the research work but just thought of writing the thought process that I went through here. Surely, will write about the research work on my technical blog, once the paper gets published and this task had the deadline on Sep 6^th.

 

Dr.Lavanya from SRM wanted to work with me on a paper. I was very hesitant as I was already on a tight schedule with the above-mentioned tasks along with my regular academic and research duties at SRM. I had to pull out a “NO” to her initially. Then there was call from a Springer journal Special issue on “Equality and Diversity”. When I saw that one term, “LGBTQIA”, I thought I should not miss this. So, called her again to ask if she is ok to write a paper on “LGBTQIA”. Like I was ignorant about LGBTQIA, a few months back, even she was ignorant about it, when I spoke to her. Then after I explained about LGBTQIA, she readily accepted. I would like to thank her for having accepted to work on this topic and I learnt a lot from her. Though this task had to be taken totally out of schedule, we somehow managed to get it done and submitted our paper on Sep 6^th. Fingers crossed. Let us see how it goes with the reviewers.

A few years back, there was a positive talk on LGBTQIA among friends, but I was feeling totally uncomfortable and was not accepting the fact behind it. Then I just thought why not I should accept the fact about LGBTQIA as the friend who spoke for it is so knowledgeable and one of those, whom I trust the most. Then I taught myself about the positivity and the fact behind LGBTQIA community. I was very upset to see the sufferings they undergo. What is commonly unfair among the humans is that “Until we undergo, we won’t understand”. I include me also here.  Yes, for the readers, who are yet to know what LGBTQIA is, let me explain. LGBTQIA is short form for Lesbian, Gay, Transgender, Queer or Questioning, Inter Sexual and Asexual community.

 

Twitter is one of the eye opening social handles. If you are on twitter you get to listen to legends on a regular basis. I just love tweets of  Sundar Pitchai, my gurus, Andrew NG, Chris Manning and Dan Jurafsky .. I saw a tweet from Sundar Pitchai supporting LGBTQIA. Here is a letter that he sent to LGBTQIA employees. https://www.theverge.com/2019/6/12/18663017/google-ceo-sundar-pichai-lgbtq-employees-letter-harassment. June month is celebrated as the pride month for LGBTQIA community and almost all top software companies around the globe came forward to support LGBTQIA and hoisted the LGBTQIA flag.   Here is a picture of google with LGBTQIA flag and here is the blog link https://blog.google/outreach-initiatives/arts-culture/history-pride-flag/  . 

 

I request the readers to filter out the bad contents while knowing more about LGBTQIA, as those bad contents stand as the most important reason behind stopping us from understanding the ground truth. India still lags so much behind in accepting LGBTQIA community.  At least, we have now accepted Transgenders. I am sure positive things will happen soon.

Just because heterosexuals form the majority in the society, the LGBTQIA who form the minority should not get suppressed and depressed. Most of us think that it their choice. It is not their choice and even they may be struggling to accept themselves. It is decided in their genes right from their birth. Just because, we fellow citizens are not willing to understand and accept, many talented individuals from LGBTQIA community are undergoing great depression instead of focussing on their career and personal life. This is totally unfair. The world needs more of talents from all sorts of community and if most of the good talents are deviated and allowed to get depressed just because of our narrow mindedness, then we are not leaving a better world for our next generation. Here is a picture of Menaka Guruswamy and Arundati Katju . Menaka Guruswamy and Arundati Katju are advocates of Supreme court of India and their most important identity is that they are couple. They have and they are fighting for LGBTQIA community to bring more legal rights to them. More of such powerful instances should come out from LGBTQIA community and that can only happen if we are supporting them.

Sometimes I think, who are we to support others. Every human being has the rights to live their own way in this world. If someone is not harmful to the society, then it is not definitely our business to barge in his/her personal life. Not only for LGBTQIA, but the same sort of suppression happens for Divorcees, single parent, Not Married and so many such ppl in the society.  At least now it is time to stop asking personal dumb questions at least  in the professional place like, “Are you married?”, “How many kids do you have?”, “why are you not married yet?”, “why did you stop with one child?”, “why you got divorced” bla bla bla. I am happy at least the question “what is your caste?” has got eliminated in most of the professional places. Thanks to the 80, 90 and 2k kids for this. I am sure the world will get better and better soon. Spreading love is the easiest thing in the world and it is free of cost so let us spread love!

If I have sown a positive vibe through this blog post, I am really happy and thank you so much.

Even if you are not still convinced, I still thank you for patiently reading this.

Have a great day ahead and those who are gearing up to celebrate Vinayaka Chaturthi, Happy Vinayaka Chaturthi to you!

Subalalitha.

 

 

 

 

 

Bouquet of Good souls

 

Looks like I am crowding my Non-technical blog much these days. Yes, will soon update my technical blog too. I am currently  digging on fine tuning BERT, Roberta models. Having six research scholars around you and watching them work on multi dimensional aspects of Natural Language Processing (NLP) is a great learning.  NLP gets updated everyday and catching up with that is very very important. Yes getting updated is important. Looks like my nontechnical blog is slightly getting the tech tinch. That’s fine and yes I forgot to tell you that this post is going to be again a random post that is going to be a mere translation of my current state of mind and heart. That feel of seeing a writeup getting its content filled by your thoughts flushed by a sequence of neurons and arteries (there could even be non sequence possible right?) is amazing!.  I visualize this status reporting similar to a practice that we had a in our St.Antonys school, Mylapore . In the assembly, before national anthem, the class pupil leader would take a step forward and report the section name with attendance on that day like (67/70) and salute the school pupil leader who would be standing on stage and step backward. I really like doing that and you got to believe this that I was chosen as a class leader in my 8^th standard, and I still remember the votes I got, and it was 32 😊 😊 😊. School days are always ever green.

Recently, I completed 38 years of successfully living this life. Would be grateful if I complete all my responsibilities before I leave, and few astrologers have told that this is my last birth. Don’t know if it is true or not but would be more grateful if I had some opportunity to pay back something to the society from which I have taken a lot. Yes, being grateful without complaining no matter what gives you abundance peace. Choosing peace over anything eventually gives you happiness.  That is what I have learnt so far.  Thanks to all those good souls who always taught me the right way of leading this life 😊. Here is the photo of mine cutting cake with my kid, my sis in law kids and in laws on my birthday at vellore. Thanks so much Ranjani,(my sis in law) for your surprise 😊

 

Some one said this universe gives you what you ask for. I think it is our “thinking” that is doing the “asking” task. Your thought is what you become. Yes of course, you can’t have always good thoughts with that halo around your head wearing that white long dress with or without wings 😊 Bad thoughts emitting neurons has to be monitored and be  made sure that they take the backstage.  Also, I have observed this, whenever I fret and lose hope with humans, I get to meet nice ones the very next day gaining my hope back. No, I am not lying. This has happened many times. They give me the confidence on going ahead with my beliefs.  The people who give their time, stop by amidst their busy schedule and shed their concern are to be marked with star symbol and to be taken along. Yes, the more you could carry them, the more you are travelling in the right direction. I have stopped taking nonsense long back. I just pass by such nonsense waiting for the nice ones again.

I am happy that I am holding a bouquet of good souls tied with that nice satin ribbon in my hand. To few, regularly I converse, to few once a month/year , to few on demand 😊 , to few career wise, to few I don’t 😊 .No matter what, You are a special person who have made my life so beautiful so far.  Let us see what this life has for us. Good luck to you and to me as well 😊.Now I  got the apt title for this post :)

One of those soul in my bouquet, I don’t know how I missed him in my blog. Just realized that I have not mentioned about him at all. He is Chandru Anna, my cousin brother who have been my career advisor since my childhood. You have been a great support to me, and I am wondering how I missed you here in my blog and today it hit me hard as today is his birthday. Wishing you a very happy birthday . Have a wonderful life ahead bro 😊 .Here is his photo 😊

Don’t know the thoughts spitted out by neurons and arteries are coherent enough to see this as a write up but have to stop here to continue with my awaiting chores 😊

Thanks for reading and have a nice day 😊

 

 

 

The Offspring

After a long time came here with a title in mind. Sunday looks so messy with official assignments, dinner  and dosa batter preparation   for making weekdays easier etc etc. Spending 30 mins here means a lot and makes much difference😊 . This Covid vaccine confusions that are creating around, to put it or not, will it protect us from covid or not, will it yield side effects or not, will we survive tomorrow or not😊 . It’s so saddening to see human race is  being posed with lot of challenges and the life is filled with too much uncertainties and I do notice that this post is getting a negative flavour. So will change the dimension from here 😊

The offspring I meant in the title is not the biological offspring. The offspring each one’s neurons and arteries are emitting out and I meant that. I know it is bit confusing at this moment. No worries, Even I feel the same here 😊 Will get it clarified right here.  Humans and all living creatures produce offspring. The offspring carry the DNA and creates a string of tight bond between the producer and the upcoming generations as well.   That’s how the biological offspring work(s).

What I meant is the string of tight bond that we could create with  those who are not  biologically  connected to us  😊 . An example always helps.  Almost everyone in the world is an offspring of their kindergarten /primary school teacher as we all still remember the way we were taught tiny tiny things by them. Still I remember my 5^th grade teacher's lesson of how to remember the month which has 30 days/ 31 days. She taught us to remember the first line of a poem which is this,”30 days has September April June and November”. Even today, I use this to check to find out if  that month has 30 days or 31 days 😊 So I am an offspring of her.  I  feel  when we receive  good thoughts/habits/potential/lessons  from anyone, we become their offspring.

Giving out a biological offspring, growing it as a responsible good hearted soul is one way of living even after we are gone,  the many other ways could be to  give away good vibes and that’s how great people influence our hearts even after they are gone . The gestures and the thoughts one emit is  influencing someone and if that is going to be a positive good vibe then that’s how a tight string of bond is created  within or even across generations just like biological offspring works😊 . Hope you are getting my point at least now. Sorry if this is confusing 😊 .

 

 I am a proud offspring of my guru Dr.Ranjani Parthsarathi, my Phd Guide,  and I am only worried if I will  continue the tight bond to my scholars by passing on what she gave me😊.Let us see😊. Teachers are so lucky to produce many  potential offspring. Especially, school teachers😊 . Yeah I am always biased towards teachers. But still …not only teachers, a good boss, a team lead, a friend, a sibling, a colleague, anyone can produce potential offspring. That’s for this reason I have fixed many filters around my neurons to collect only good vibes from people around 😊 . Let me see if I am able to produce potential offspring in this life span of mine😊 good luck to me and good luck to you too😊

 

Thanks for reading. Have a great week ahead 😊

Subalalitha

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Empty Bin

Hello all! My usual welcoming words on my YouTube Channel 😀 Wish I could start that again. It was so surprising  and felt so  happy that a Professor from NIT  who does not even know who I am  called and appreciated for the efforts. That showed his magnanimity.  I am currently strengthening my Python skills. I feel it should be explored more as I really feel weak at it for core NLP and Deep Learning applications. May be after I am satisfied I should really start YouTube Teaching . I really love that. Shedding what I  like is not good for my arteries, I know 😀   Caught up with  blogging exactly at 5.50 am. Cooking time starts at 6. am . will start with lil delay today 😀 So should quickly wind up this , so what I mean is that.... I am coming to the point soon 😀

The empty bin that is covered with that black bin cover is so attractive. Yes it is for me. When the kitchen bin is full it stinks and I feel it always gives less peace . Of course most of the time I feel lazy to tie and wait for Banu who works for us, but if it so overflowing, I will tie before she comes, believing that it  would give some peace for her😀

But always every single time the empty bin with new  black cover always vibrates a good feeling. I think the same way my neurons feel, when I tend to dump stuffs on it, I mean the unwanted stuffs. I feel there is a single difference between the real bin and my neurons. The more good  nice thoughts my neurons are dumped with would actually  look like the empty bin covered with new black cover😀 

 Sorry if it was confusing as I typed this post before even my neurons woke up completely 😀

Whatever it is, have a nice day and enjoy the happiness of having an empty bin  😀More happiness to you 😀

Thanks for reading 

Subalalitha

Laying your own road

 

Writing a blog amidst piled up duties is liking having a cup of tea middle of the work. Writing is one of those habits that massages your mind and gives a lot of clarity. I know I have said this many times 😊 but this is what I have constantly experienced for the past 15 years! Writing on a public forum like the one I am doing right now, gives you a better thought process. Give it a try 😊 . Yes coming to the post, as usual I have an  empty mind. I am just rewinding the way I use to plan and write years back and these days unplanned visits to my blog is just normal.  And yes, unplanned writing delivers a lot of TRUTH 😊. Since I had said that writing is a mind massaging task, that means my neurons/arteries are tired of working constantly towards many things around. Let me see what dimension of that I will emit here.

The more I get old, I more I get cognizance, the more perplexed I go 😊 . I really want to go back to the days, when I was ignorant of many things and very naïve ( Mind voice of Selva and few people who know me: “ippo mattum enna? 😊”). No. I feel the difference and I am able to capture people’s mind and that’s the beginning of all confusions (LOL). No I won’t let a negative post coming out of me. Will make best attempts to emit a positive one.

Recent days, I was in doubt of myself, my principles, and rigid policies. The thought process of major population around you affects a lot of your own thought process. No. That would not be the victory you must be fetching for yourself. Being a believer of karma, being an atheist, being a person with inability to hurt anyone, being a person with trust in truth, being a person with trust in unconditional love,  etc etc, If  you share most of these shades with me , welcome to the club, I understand your journey 😊 . I get a doubt?  . Are we guys a majority or minority population? 😊

These days, I can see myself feeling happy towards like-minded people and the reverse with non-matching ones.  The resistance that grows within me towards the negative force is sometimes so scary, as this earth is a mixture of all kind of forces. I think I still need to grow tackling negativity 😊 than avoiding it. My god! I am just watching what kind of transformation this life is giving  me. From 24/7 chatterbox to occasionally talking, of course my chatterbox nature is much utilized now in teaching 😊 I am some how speaking and that's the good news 😊.  and much more positive transformations I am observing in myself 😊

I have this visualization in my mind. Sitting down and laying my road of life like real workers work on building a highway!  There can be defeats, victories, smiles, tears, angers whatever that comes along, I am just going to enjoy the way I believe and will  keep adding colours of my choice. Let me see how it is going to go and how it is  going to look at the end 😊. Now I remembered to give a title to the post using the last para’s words. This is like  how in  most Tamil movies, they utter the Title at the end to justify the connect 😊

 

Thanks for reading. Go ahead and enjoy laying your own road :)

 

Subalalitha

 

 

My Bigram Thoughts and Clarification to my Previous Post

  

Looks like deadlines are chasing me 😊. With AICTE funded hands-on workshop on "Deep Feed Forward networks" scheduled on Feb 4^th, 2021, Correcting research  papers for research scholars and three of my scholars quote the same deadline Jan31st, 2021 ☹, A single-author paper on Tamil Computing to be written for Dravidian  Language workshop whose deadline is on Feb 10^th, 2021 and a funded project proposal to be submitted on Feb 18^th and  Preparing for Artificial Intelligence course . Yay I finally got this course to teach for B.Tech 😊. I have been wanting this for the past five years at SRM.  Though looks like I am squeezed up, I like these busy routines, but I also would want a short detour escaping these routines to gear myself up. So came here to scribble something on a week day -working day, early morning!. I am yet to come up with an idea . Let me see how this post is going to evolve.

 

Yes Yes. Before that, I want to clarify a small thing. I understood that my previous post, “Unheard Conversations- http://subalalitha.blogspot.com/2021/01/unheard-conversations.html  confused many. Only one was able to get the answer after I gave clues. That is nothing but  the conversation between me and myself ( neurons+arteries) . Just thought of bringing out how we think inside but how we react outside to suit the society 😊. Many times, I (we?) would want to vent my anger to people at work but then we would have to give back smiles. Those cannot be avoided too 😊 the same holds good for all emotions as well. Of course, that differentiates humans from rest living beings. No wonder 😊 .Now you can go back and read it again, if you would want to 😊 

Now I got an idea to proceed with this post. I am going to write my thoughts using Bigrams. Bigrams  in Natural Language processing (NLP) domain denote two  consecutive words or consecutive characters.. If it is so confusing, please  track the full stops for clarity 😊.  Here it goes.

 

Deep dark

Still bright.

Moon Stars

Make light.

Hazy Path

Way exists.

Clear Mind

Steady Heart

Direct journey

Gives Smiles.

Give Smiles

Get Multitude.

Give Love

Get Multitude.

Move forward

Only solution.

 

Actually wanted to write more  but have to catch up with cooking and got to get ready for work.  . Feeling fresh now 😊 and that’s the reason to visit this lovely place every time.  Have a nice day and Thanks so much for reading.

 

Subalalitha

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Unheard Conversations

 

Took leave today  and thought I should do this as the first thing in the morning. Actually scheduled this yesterday itself. Usually I come here unplanned. One of my students, Vinayak shared an AI generated poem yesterday and I said poetic sense is not to be left to AI and should be hold by humans. He said may be now that is fine but later AI can generate better poems. Might be true but still I want humans to own the creativity and yes that's when I thought I should write a poem but then I seriously lost touch writing a poem. I have been writing my experiences these days .Squeezed my neurons but no use. They could come up  only with this idea which cant be called as a poem. It’s a conversation happening between two people. I would rather not reveal the identity of the people and leave the interpretations to the reader and it isn’t tough too😊.

 

“Good Morning”

“Oh, it’s morning? What’s up for today”.

“Plenty”.

“oh god!”

“Smile”.

                “No”

“Yes, u should”

                “Mind your work”.

“I am actually doing it”

                “Oh yeah 😊”

“you smiled 😊”

                “Yes u made me do that 😊”

“My pleasure”

                “Mine too”

 ***************************************************

“ I heard you yelling at them? “

                “Yes”

“But I was calm”.

                “Oh I never knew. We contradict many times”.

“Oh  yes.. u see them.. see them???? they are still smiling at you.”.

                “Yeah😊 coz they know you better”

“Oh yeah”

                “Ok. Stay calm for a while”

“Yeah I’ll do that”

                “I said stay calm ”

“  --------------  ”

                “good”

 ***************************************************

“Hey give me five!! we smiled at the same time ”

                “yessss”

“U like them?”

                “u know right?”

“yeah but u did not  tell  them”

                “Not necessary”

“Oh is it?”.

                “yes”.

 

“hey but I see you expressing now?”

                “Oh yes”.

“So, it is necessary now right?.

                “No”

“Then why?”

                “ You decided and U ask me this ☹”

“Oh yeah 😊

 ***************************************************

“Hey stop stop!  I see you smiling while I am  boiling here”

                “Stay calm”

 “Hey again stop!  now I cry but I don’t see any tears out?. Something wrong??”

                “Everything is fine. Stay calm”

“I said I am crying”

                “Ok then, I will stay calm. You continue to cry”

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“ Say Sorry ”

                “U din hear me? I told already. I am known for this 😊”

“Oh yeah I know . for telling thanks too right? 😊

                “U make me do that and u ridicule me?? Strange!”

“Stay Calm!”

                “I will rather smile😊”

 

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“So the day is over. It’s time to sleep”

                “Sweet dreams. Good Night”

“Oye! I have to make your dreams.”

                “Oh yeah I forgot! Go ahead 😊”

     

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Thanks for reading  and sorry if you got bored or got confused :) Have a great day!

Subalalitha

               

               

 

 

 

 

               

 

 

 

On my Journey with a Multi-Domain Expert Friend at SRM

 

I have always written about people who have influenced my life in some way or the other. People around us have a great impact on us knowingly or unknowingly. I always pick people who are likeminded in some aspect and I think this goes well with anyone on earth. While leaving TACOLA (Tamil Computing Lab, Anna University), I never ever thought it is not going to be so easy to make friends at workplace like I had there. What I learnt after joining SRM is that professional life shows you many likeminded people in terms of your work ethics and policies. I just earned a big list of friends that way, who have similar thought process to that of mine   and have helped me to grow along with them. I was just wowed by so many people who gave their hands around the globe who work in the same research field of mine and  lift me up and kept on believing me .This is what is  keeping me to move forward. Dr. Muthu Annamalai sir from U.S and Dr. Bharathi Raja Ashok sir from Ireland have shown a great support. I am thankful to them. There is a huge list of people at SRM and outside SRM  who show their support consistently and encourage me always .I will write about them all someday. I am only worried if I will hurt anyone; if I miss to mark anyone by mistake 😊. that is why delaying that right now 😊

 

In this process of making many professional friends, I really forgot to make friends at the workplace like I made during my UG, PG and TACOLA days. I was fine with it and felt so comfortable. Of course, my friends I made at my apartment are like the ones like I had during my school/college days. I really miss you ladies during this lockdown ☹ Those extended chats on Fridays, with our kids playing around, short trips. …. this Covid is bad ☹ We will win this and will catch up. And yes finally coming to the point. I was lucky enough to find a friend at workplace too like I had at school/college/TACOLA/apartment. This post is about that friend.

 That was my first hands-on Workshop as a resource person on NLP using Python on July 3^rd and 4^th 2019 at SRM Vadapalani Campus. Thanks to Dr.Fathimal ! Mam, you gave me the beginning and apart from you, I am happy to spot  two more likeminded people at SRM, Vadapalani campus, Dr. Prasanna Devi mam and Dr.Meenakshi Arya. I have inspired a lot from you both by the way you work. Thanks so much Dr.Fathimal for all this. Coming back to the NLP workshop , one of my colleagues, Mr.Karthick Nanmaran was also  invited for that workshop as a co -resource person. Since that was my first workshop experience, I never had a clue on how to deliver things. I just went by the flow of topics assigned to me. That was a two-day workshop. Me and Karthick divided the topics given to us. He was supposed to give session on the second day. Handling a workshop is totally different. You got to sense the audience pulse and should not be pre-determined and should be ready to change your plans accordingly. This I did not know. I finished my first introduction session and started to give hands-on session on POS tagger and Named entity tagger in Python. That is when some one in the audience said, they did not know Python but I was not ready for that and I myself was exploring Python afresh during that time. Someone stopped me in the middle  of the conversation and started teaching  the Python foundations for the participants. I did not feel even a bit of irritation rather felt very relaxed that things were going in the right direction. That someone is none other than my co-resource person, Karthick and I never knew  at that point that he is going to enlighten me much more. Here is the photograph that was taken at the end of the workshop.

Karthick is a very young (compared to me  😊), dynamic and  a multi-faceted person . He is a  tech savvy in many fields, Software Defined Networks, IOT, Kubernetes, NLP, Machine Learning etc etc. Mastering a single domain takes a lot of efforts and I am still wondering how this guy is into these much of fields. He has got a lot of good  Publications. He  has done his Masters in University of Edinburgh. He is a good teacher. I have seen many students discussing positively  about him in my  student whatsapp group . If possible do read his interview that he gave for a website when one his questions papers went viral on the web 😊https://www.thequint.com/neon/viral-exam-instructions-paper-srm-university-professor . I know him since 2017 as we both took Text Mining.  He gave a  hands-on session in  Python for all the Text Mining students during that time on a Saturday and that was an extra effort he gave to give more insight about the subject to the students. He even gave me an opportunity to talk on Machine Learning in one of the National Level workshops he organized at SRM in 2017. Do you remember this Karthick ? One day when I was  handling a lab session, You asked me if I can talk on TensorFlow and give an  intro on ML. I know I did not keep up your expectations in that talk. I shouldhave said no to that request 😊.

 

Then in 2018, we again took NLP together, but I never sensed a friend in him and yeah I said I almost forgot to make friends apart from professional friends at workplace after TACOLA.  Also Karthick had an additional tag  on him. He is the son of our Head of the Department, Dr.B.Amudha mam. Usually, these tags disturb me a lot. I have strange policies, so I don’t violate that for any reason.  Of course, that tag was not made visible by Karthick at any point of time and the problem was much with my perception 😊 I know I am strange. Coming to that NLP workshop at Vadapalani campus in 2019, that’s when it hit me that this person is very nice and had so much of similarities with my TACOLA friends.  He resembles a lot of my TACOLA  friend, Radhakrishnan  in  terms of both looks and character.

Karthick is my Python guru. We both gave one more hands-on workshop  at the EEE department of our University.  Without him those workshops would not have served the purpose and he gave me a clarity on how a hands-on Workshop should be conducted. He already had so much of workshop experiences. The foundations that he gave me  on Python and on clarity on how to conduct workshops gave a lot of confidence to me later.  Also we both worked on projects on Speech recognitions. We used to explore on Tamil computing tools.We started a github project named, "Karmughil". Also we tried getting funds for these projects and we wrote proposals together.  We targeted to submit to Tamil Virtual Academy(TVA) and they asked us few requirements so we have spent one full half day sitting on the  stone benches of Anna university , CEG campus  editing those proposals / coding speech recognition ( TVA is next to CEG campus and we preferred sitting under the tree at CEG:) . I seek a lot of compatibility while working and I have found a lot of coherent thoughts coming out of both of us while writing those proposals. I am going to really miss this Karthick. The way we write proposals in vey few hours, even patent documents. I am doubting if I will get such a compatible co-researcher. Good Luck to me :)

 I strongly believe in the mantra, "Judge a Character of a man by how he treats those who can do nothing for him" Many would have seen this in my Whatsapp status and this has been my Blog’s caption for more than a decade. This is the easy mantra I always use to judge people. People who exhibit consistent behaviors are trustworthy.  Karthick is high on values, he is very down to earth. He recently wrote a book for Oxford publisher on Data structures using  Python . I am surprised of how a person can be like him holding on to ground despite many feathers on his cap. Anyone who sees his twitter profile would judge him as an anti-Indian(LOL). He gets angry on a lot of political discrepancies and raise questions but that is only a bit of him . Yeah any social media webpage only depicts a very small proportion of a person 😊

Karthi,( that’s how I call him as that “ik” at the end  was not coming easily for me so I decided this way 😊)  you are one of the blessed souls and I will surely miss you in the campus. When I was in TACOLA, going to canteen for tea twice a day was a ritual. I almost forgot to have a teatime at SRM and It was you who would drag me to canteen, at times, for tea. I realized after 4 years that our Java green tea shops deliver such a nice ginger tea.  I really enjoyed our Tamil virtual Academy visits. CEG has a lot of lifetime emotion within me and thanks for giving me  company to have food at CEG canteen during our TVA visits :)We tried our level best to get that proposal but sad that we could not get that. Never mind.  You taught me many things right from Python and even on how to be composed towards people who do not align with our policies. Thanks for taking all my nonsense. None at SRM, know that I get angry as I don’t vent my anger other than people at home and to my close friends.  I know departures are part of life and we got to accept that  and I am very well used to it and I also know that some people would never leave out of our life/mind  no matter what. 

 I wish you a fantastic happy life ahead. I always say this to  you that you  are meant to strike big. I strongly believe in that and please try to pull out the best version out of you.  Keep rocking and flap your feathers towards the pinnacle for which you are destined for!

 

Thanks to the souls who patiently read this 😊

 

Subalalitha