Tale of Uncertainties

Actually, wanted to learn deep learning programming in Python which has become my recent obsession. I am comfortable with Machine learning to an extent but not so with this deep learning stuff. Thought it is  better to learn through programming . I did not do this way for Machine Learning; I mean I learnt the theoretical part first then slowly dived into the Python face of it. Thanks to the Workshops for which I was invited as resource persons. The ground truth is that we will  learn more when we are forced to teach 😊. And yes, thanks to my co-faculty and my friend Karthick who is the main reason behind kindling my interest in Python and he is the one who helped me to conduct all those workshops with ease. Today, I felt I should deviate with the surrounding uncertainties and the best way to deviate according to me is to write and that’s the reason for this blog visit !

Yesterday, Selva showed me a video of how Covid 19 patients are quarantined in temporary hospital arrangements at Chennai Trade centre and Loyola College. It was too scary. Feel like living that 2012 movie. An optimist turning pessimist is not a good sign and let me not do that 😊 Felt like writing about this uncertain life. I think since March 14^th , I am at home.  while I locked my cabin at college on March 13^th, I am sure I did not have any idea that I would be wondering like this about when I will open my cabin again. I am sure not only me, all co faculties who locked their cabins will unlock them with smiles and the classrooms will be vibrant and colourful with students soon.

Always we would have a friend in one of our friend groups,  who would send  these WhatsApp forwards daily and the most frequent one is about “always being happy in this  uncertain life” . May be we ignored that friend as well as that message and his/her curse is making us to learn the fact the harder way 😊.

Many times we won’t know that the good bye we say might be the last one. No No please I don’t mean the worst negative sense it holds. I Feel to those who I waved my good bye on March 13^th might  have thoughts of changing their jobs and we may not even meet again. Saarthak, who is my final year student waved us good bye during  last semester in December and  went ahead with his internship in North India. He was waiting to visit us again in April as we had scheduled his final project viva during that time . Destiny had some other plans. We have planned to  conduct  vivas online and he will leave to University of Toronto for his Masters once these chaos are over!  Saarthak, the world is too small, we will meet someday and staying connected despite the distance is one of the best things for a strong relationship 😊. Let us stay strong 😊

What I am trying  to convey is that goodbyes are to be taken  seriously and it is better to mix smiles with them to make them stay vivid 😊 Also, it is always better to express any positive emotion like revealing gratitude or sorry  on  time. The delays we make, can skip that moment in the whole lifetime of ours☹

Uncertainties may make us lazy as the total life looks hazy ! My parents always scold me and my brothers using Tamil proverbs. I like this one. “அழுதாலும்  உழுதுட்டே  இருக்கனும்” . which means a  farmer is  supposed to keep doing his job even when  in grief. Our grand parents were farmers and may be  that’s why our parents used this proverb to us and  I feel that’s the solution too 😊. With hopes in heart,  we should keep moving ahead with our usual responsibilities. May be this life will choose us if our deeds are much needed for this world. Fingers crossed 😊

I am seriously hoping that I will put an end to this lockdown blog series and  post my last  lockdown write up, the day before  my kid would happily board her school bus and that’s when this  world would be ready for use once again  😊 .  Good luck to me and good luck to you  too 😊  

Have a wonderful day and a happy life  ahead. Thanks for reading 😊

Subalalitha