Thought of writing about
lock down experiences but its getting extended like anything, also the To-do
list is getting lengthier, eventually the mind gets messier and needs definitely
a warm-up before jumping in to the TO-DO list . The one thing which makes us
always feel guilty is this to-do list. They do not get satisfied most of the
time. I always feel had they got the power of emitting emotion they would only
emit “Anger” or “Dissatisfaction” 😊 Teaching
has become such a multi-dimensional career, and at times, one dimension pulls
down the other. Oops, looks like I am sprinkling negativity. Pls Pls erase off
your mind, what you read till now 😊
Actually came here to grab a cup of positivity, before I grab my morning cup of coffee but slipped to do that 😊
This lock-down not only
for me but for all would have been a different experience. Really sad about those
who cannot pull out a smiling memory out of this. I am thinking of people
suffering due to this Covid and worse than that people facing a huge financial loss.
I feel more than Covid’s direct attack, the intensity is highly felt in
it’s indirect attack, i.e, financial set
back many are facing. I believe, the universe always knows to emerge again
afresh no matter how bad the fall was ! Let us hope for the best.
Coming back to my own
part, even before the lock down was announced, Selva locked down us a week
prior to that. He is always protective and my kid was so puzzled why he is this
way when the whole world is roaming around. I had to convince her with many of his earlier instances. One of
the craziest instances would be, he never allowed me to travel alone throughout
my entire pregnancy. I was working in Anna University, He always would drop me
and I will have to wait till he returns from office to pick me up. He was and
still is working in CTS, Mepz, Tambaram and our home was in Velachery. I still
remember how I use to wait in the stone benches for him as our lab gets over by
6 PM . His reasoning would be, “I am not even confident on you walking
carefully and you cant manage to go home alone". The weird fact is that, an auto stand is there outside
anna university and Velachery is in 15
mins reach from Anna University. I always take his love and care
positively and he would be right about me mostly!. The effort he took during
that nine months, not sure how many men will do without failing a single day
and even after my kid was born he was the one who took more care than me. Blessed
me😊. But … yes but… at times I I feel he can believe me to take that extra step
on my own😊
Still driving is prohibited to me and I
felt during this lock down, it would have been better had I known driving. Ok
let me convince him for the rest of my life 😊
Looks like, I have taken a detour! Passing a day sitting
in hall and spending time in kitchen was so boring initially. Amidst this we had/have college duties,
online meetings, Youtube recornings etc. Finding a physical space in our 2 BHK
home to separate myself as a mom and a Teacher is not a big problem but allocating
a mental space and exhibiting a clear distinction was/is a great challenge. For
a kid of course it is hard to accept that
her mom is always with laptop and she needs to sit beside her, watching
TV or doing her hobbies and this single child scenarios has its own side
effects 😊 . Selva could not help as he needs
to be on call, meetings and he got a separate room physically and mentally 😊 Now she also got homework from her
school and from her dance teacher. Yay..
she is also busy now 😊.
Amidst this we did not foresee such difficulty would arise. My kid got fever soon after the lock down started.
We had to go to hospital. Only after going to hospital, we came to know that the
life outside home is not that scary and that hospital was completely safe. She
had a bacterial infection and she had to take three courses of medicine as the infection got resistant to each of the course and finally we had to give
her injection daily visiting hospital . She is doing fine now. The only problem
was to handle kids when they are sick and my lil one makes sure I am awake the
whole night and ofcourse we had to check
her temperature and give medicine. All those petty disappointments that arose
due to lock down after we faced during this tough time vanished and being healthy and
safe inside home is not a bane after all 😊
I was awed by the way the
hospital employees work even during this time. Doctors definitely need a big
applause but what caught my attention was the other employees i.e the
securities, cleaners, nurses who are not paid that high but still they need to
come daily risking their life. A group of humans working for the sake of the
rest of the human group’s safety and life! and this is happening worldwide. This definitely
has a lesson in it ! We should be
thankful always for what we have and be polite and kind to others irrespective
of whether they would be useful or useless.
It is so weird that most of the world classifies ppl as useful/useless than
good/bad.
Yes regarding colourful happenings, the song nights we have listening to all our favourite songs before going
to bed, doing all chores on our own and sharing them among us. Me and my kid was craving to have an extended
story time and that’s happening these days. I miss my early morning cooking of
course, but serving them hot food getting drenched with sweat in kitchen is a
happy thing. Yes, my student Saarthak’s interview attempt with me https://youtu.be/I_vdOtJN6rc was a nice
experience. The recent one was my birthday😊
Selva’s first cake attempt and my kids’s surprise gifts was a bliss and blessing
always. I had switched off my birthday reminder on facebook and my kid had a
challenge on me to count on my friends who would call to wish me without any
automated reminders. I told her clearly, this challenge is not required in the
first place as I know only those five souls would call (excluding my family members, parents and in laws 😊). They are none other than my PG
friends, Anitha, Vani , Punitha and Kavitha mam and my Tacola friend, Rama who
is a scientist now in DRDO . These five have been wishing for more than a decade.
😊 and we take only that birthdays as
the opportunity to talk ,taking a time travel backwards definitely at least a decade before, shedding all those tags before and
after our names 😊
I really love that “me” coming out and speaking like I did, those days. People calling me “Suba” have
become so meagre. Ofcourse few professors at our University call me “Suba” and the rest calls me “Mam”. Of course, this cant be avoided. I was telling
my friends how I miss these informal talks. I don’t know this Balaji, my Tacola friend of
mine talks to me on my every birthday without realizing a single time that its
my birthday and wishes me a week later 😊 . This time he got better. Ten
minutes after had called, he realized that it was my birthday and he wished me
in our WhatsApp group we have😊
Strange 😊 Having a friend who is not your
gender gives you a new dimension to everything 😊
But remembering birthdays and wishing need not necessarily be taken into
account in any relationship 😊
That’s the update ! Hope we
all grab the maximum positivity out of this lock down and emerge better and continue
to fly as high as we can after our locks
are released 😊 Good luck to you and good luck to me
😊
Thanks for reading
Subalalitha
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