Wow! I am frequently visiting my
place 😊 I have a reason today. Though I felt the
urge of writing this post, I had determined to finish preparing the material
for DBSCAN algorithm which I have planned to record tomorrow morning as soon as
I go to college , for my machine learning YouTube channel,. I enter my room at
7.30 AM. I finish breakfast by 7.40 AM. That’s the perfect time to record
videos . I have ruined the whole day if I decide to record post 9 AM. I have
even taken 20 to 30 attempts . I think that Hierarchical Agglomerative
clustering drove me almost mad. I started by 9 AM and I was able to finish only
2 PM because of continuous interruptions! So fingers crossed for tomorrow
morning video recording 😊 Now coming to the title 😊
Actually today marks my completion of 8 years of motherhood so thought of
writing how this dimension has contributed to my life !
I have written so many times
about my motherhood and about my gal. I think https://subalalitha.blogspot.com/2012/05/paradigm-shifts.html is the first post about my motherhood. Let me try if I can avoid repetitions.
Yes, motherhood is surely one of the dimensions which supplies the maximum
positivity to anyone. Yeah fatherhood is also not be missed. “Parenting”, the comfortable
term I can use which gives a lot of positive energy and aligns ones life path automatically. I never ever have thought of cooking on the
third day of fever before marriage, but the stamina automatically comes from
within as your kid’s food is the top priority. Of course, Selva cooks when I am
ill 😊 but I will feel guilty to continue him
cooking after I am OK so will get back to kitchen usually.
Yeah the patience, before marriage,
I have so many times yelled at my mom when I am hungry . Now I have developed
the patience of holding on with my hunger till I am done giving dinner to my kid and Selva . Yeah this happens
only If am preparing dosas as I always prefer serving them hot! otherwise we
will all have together. Yeah I know what you are thinking? So, where comes patience
here. That’s your question right ? Hmm This is only one instance. I am not able
to cite a better example. Believe me ! I have developed patience at least relatively compared
to my spinster life 😊
Leave that silly thing please 😊
My parenthood is contributing much to my teaching job. That empathy to see the
students from their parents’ point of view is only possible due to my
parenthood. Teachers who are spinsters and bachelors don’t get offended
please. Maybe you empathize better than me but this is only my
perspective and my own experience. Once in my machine learning class this
semester, I was asking students feedback face-to-face. Yeah, that is one of the
dangerous situations you could put yourself into 😊. That day the student’s strength was very
less and I finished teaching the topic so early so thought of taking this risk.
One student told me that “I don’t express my feelings to others”. The word, “feelings” was misinterpreted by the
other students and they started laughing. They felt he should have used a better
word but as a teacher, I can’t laugh for that. I told him. “Have you ever
expressed your feelings to your mom?”. He said, “NO”. I said, “you should have
expressed to her right?”. Then he started expressing his thoughts about our
class and he was able to speak for 3 to 5 minutes. I said “you expressed well”.
He smiled 😊. I think the parent in me was able to tackle
this kind of situation well. Also, when I talk to parents of my students, I
could very well feel the parent in me talking better than the teacher in me.
Yeah , the kid in me was brought
out only because of my motherhood. As my daughter is a single child, I decided
to be her sibling/friend more than being a mother. She calls me “Suba” most of
the times. Sometimes I remind her that I am her mom whenever there is a
deviation and give her that yell which is much needed to align her 😊
. We use to play like anything. I like playing tennis with her. We play word
games. We sing together. We chat with each other like friends. I share my day
at college to her. She shares her day at school. The only villain is that “doremon”
and “shinchan”. She gets immersed while watching that and never bothers about
me and I have to get immersed in kitchen during that time ☹
My sleep-hours- reduction came as
a by product of attaining motherhood. I love sleeping before becoming mom but after
becoming mom that too when you do PhD along with your motherhood, you get a
worst sleep pattern and will literally become an owl. This has anyways contributed
many positive things. I was able to focus on my passions, hobbies and do research
and have an extended day 😊. So I am ok with 6 to 7 hours of sleep 😊
Yeah I think I should gear up for
the day of my gal today ! So will end here. Yeah people who resist marriage
should reconsider as marriage is mainly about parenting which is the most
beautiful part of life, seeing yourself again in another soul aligning yourself
on to the right path. That’s my perspective but again opinion will always
differ 😊
Thanks for reading 😊
Subalalitha
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