A Wishy-Washy Post

For the third time I am typing a post for my blog .Hoping to publish instead of leaving it half way and forgetting it totally.

Disclaimer for the upcoming para alone:

It’s all my polambals and u could feel it utter non-sense so if u want u can skip it ;no probJ

Not so busy but kind of getting meager time to spend on net. Every day right from 6 AM to 8.30 A.M, time vanishes in cooking and getting ready to work.9.30 A.M-7.30 P.M gets engulfed in work. That’s, where I get the reason to lose all my time, which I should have spent at least one hour for tasks that cheer up my neurons and arteries. Though not a very good writer, I feel so fresh when I flush out something out of my mind or heart through doodling on this laptop.Night veettukku vanthu ezhuthalaamenu neenga kekalaam.athukkum naanga kaaranam vachirukomla.night vanthu samaikanum,saamaan theikkanum,veetta suththam paananum and the day ends and the next day starts as usual. And sleeping less than 7 hours makes me Unproductive for the whole day so usually I don’t prefer burning the midnight oil. Waiting to finish my PhD and shift to my dream job ,Teaching where I could get some time for all my jolly hobbies too. Hope I don’t search for any lame excuses for not spending time usefully. And yeah I have to learn music too then.Paaklaam.

Now coming to the actual stuff, a friend of mine from US called me last Sunday morning.After so many years we could recognize voices. She spoke for about half an hour. We were talking about our BE days. That’s when my thoughts were getting into some non- uniform loop of nostalgia backward and forward about people around me. Touch wood people around me have been so affectionate to me right from family, school, UG, PG and at work too till date. I guess I have written about my family, UG, PG friends in blog.The only gang left out are my dearest DRSLAB anna univ friends. Planning to write it separately when I leave the lab.

Be it family or friends I have learnt so many things 100% good to hold on and carry on life happily. Selva has the major part in moulding me and helping to take things in a composed way .After meeting so many good people I guess, I have the right to say this. May be I may not sound right to u but still … I Guess expectation less, depth less perspective on anything/anybody’s action esp ur dear ones ,forgetting bad things in micro seconds ,at least an appreciable amount of self less attitude towards anybody etc are some of the ingredients which helps in holding your dear ones throughout life.

Thinking of writing about that one ingredient depth less perspective mentioned above which looks so hazy. It merely means not thinking too much. Making neurons to work so hard and putting arteries to sleep is too risky I would say, in terms of ,”love earning business”. Tried hard to control my semi theist-atheist ideas from entering this post. But anyways would like to share the experience, I happened to see this scene before a temple.I saw a man almost 40 years fighting like anything with an auto driver, as the auto driver asked some twenty rupees more than usual.I don’t mean to justify the auto driver’s deed.All I wanna say is, that what is the point in worshipping god;travelling all the way from home to temple with family ; losing mental peace and as well as the fine friday eve, that too the moment u leave the temple.

At the end of" a sort of this wishy- washy post", I just hope that the rest of my life continues with those ingredients learnt from dear ones, achieving dream job, jolly hobbies at fixed heights which is so tiny but quiet enough to lead an elated life whose altitude is as high as a giant wheel.