Back here again. I don't suddenly jump here. It keeps hitting me in some portions of my arteries and neurons that I need to get here . Amidst the demanding life, I keep postponing, many times I have ignored it for many years even . Today I was supposed to work on my Finetuning Part2 YouTube video but I thought I should do this as it has been 20 years since I started writing this blog!!!!!. Thanks to Selva, my husband for introducing blogger.com to me:) .Today it is very user friendly but in those days, it used to have many HTML components which looked so confusing to me .Selva taught me to use it and encouraged me to write continuously. Many blog platforms came after that but I did not want to shift this to any other. Hopefully they don't shut this blogger down!
Though this is publicly posted, I have always perceived this as shaping my own thoughts and this is one of the best ways to hear myself clearly amidst this noisy world.
It is not only about big dreams, even the smaller habits, daily chores, small decisions, I think I was able to hear myself precisely through my blog posts. Yes of course there are many things pending that still needs more alignment, I am mentioning about the mended ones:)
Let me write about the thoughts after 40+ now. Yes, I will be completing 42 years very soon:) Sometimes it is very strange to even think, I have grown this old. When we get older, it is so confusing to separate the matured person and the yet to grow kid inside us :) Here are my observations about myself after reaching 40+ which helps me to clear that confusion and make me accept the fact that I have grown old.!!! My daughter will call me boomer for these. Never mind :) I am going ahead and writing this. Only 10 points so that i don't sound like too much of a boomer :)
1. Having NIL expectations from anyone and anything. Yeah, I had practiced this long back and now accepted with zero hesitations.
2. Used to be worried about the outcomes but these days I never bothered about if the outcome is a victory/failure. I am only doing things whichever feels right for me. Most of them have given positive outcomes and the failed ones have given me more learning. So either way it is a win-win game!
3. Nothing excites me. I know that I cannot count this as a completely positive thing but that is how my current state of mind is. I think the neurons have learnt most of the patterns and the outcomes. Maybe excitement only comes in uncertain situations? I am not sure.
4. I am able to predict the nature of humans very easily. This is sometimes good and bad. I was much happier when I was naive on this part but this is helping me avoid wasting time on wrong people.
5. This one too I had practiced long back but these days I do it with zero ripples. Accepting people as they are without judging them. Might be contradicting with point 4 but I only keep myself off from totally unwanted people but otherwise, in the professional world, we need people of many kinds and we can't expect them to perfectly align with our thoughts so it is ok to accept their positive side and move on.
6. Staying emotionally detached from professional life . Being a very sensitive person, it is very hard to move ahead when I get emotional about the work components. Complete emotional detachment from all work components gives me a more clarity to move ahead with peace!
7. These days , I am accepting that anything takes time!!!. I was once expecting fast results that only gave me loads of disappointments. Now I am aligning my thoughts to take efforts which may give results slower. This I am applying to all the essence of life!
8. This one I like the most though it might sound negative about me:). These days I have zero concern about what people think about me. This has helped me to keep moving forward . Of course I am always willing to correct myself if someone points out a flaw. That is different . It was so exhausting to go around and prove to people. I Thought, I could save time and energy by avoiding it. People willing to understand will take efforts others won't. That is fine 🙂.
9. Though I am not excited, I am very much satisfied and happy most of the time. Mainly with the constraints. Accepting constraints and trying to find a way to move ahead gives clarity instead of fretting and fuming on constraints.
10. Finally, I have understood the power of investments on Health, Skills, people and money . Money is the byproduct of health and skills. Once I used to ignore health but after 40, I have strict restrictions on my diet and making 30 minutes for walking (should increase time and add more activity), so that I can be of some use to people around both in family and in society for the rest of my life 🙂
Wow. You read all 10 points!!!! Kudos to your patience. Thanks for reading and have a great day.
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