A Random Post !

Posting another new  post on the very next day!  Not able to believe that this is happening with me today but anyways had no option today even after imbibing a lot of recurrence relation solving problems today morning!

Just thought of doodling my thoughts in my own space here, so that my talkative mind would get cleaned up to an extent.  The most difficult yet interesting thing in life is to accept its sudden changes. Yeah, I forgot to write what this post is going to be as I am not yet decided still and I will not title it till the end as I don’t know the content that’s going to pop up from my mind!. One thing I know that this post is about me and another tiny version of me 😊.  I would have left my laptop and would have entered kitchen by now had she been at home. She went to her grandparent’s home at Vellore along with my sis- in-law kids yesterday. I could not join them, as I have few assignments to be completed.  Anyways will join her tomorrow.  I know there are so much difficult things faced by people in this world than just this  one!  

I am just going to fill the rest of the post of why I miss her for such short duration. Why could not I cross even a half day!  Selva had a bad time yesterday consoling me and he also asked me the same thing, why can’t you help yourself for one more day? Yes, why couldn’t I ? I was asking Selva yesterday, how I was managing life before she was born. Of course, poor Selva, has failed so many times while advising to be mature and think like a grown up! She came into our life only after 2.5 years of our marriage! It was a long wait with pain visiting gynaecologists at least  once in a week! I still can’t forget her day of arrival to this world. You won’t believe! Mine would have been the  quickest delivery in the world! At least would be in the top ten! My due date was November 2^nd, 2011. Till November 2^nd night, I  did not get pain. My hospital was just next to my apartment. So, the doctor said you just wait for one more day and come when you get pain. Till 7 PM NOV, 3^rd did not get pain and so went to the hospital.  I still remember how those two couples who had come for their first scans gave that shocking expression on their face,   when I was giving my details and telling the nurse that I need to get admitted today for delivery ! Selva had gone to inform my parents and his parents about my admit so I had to do this! So funny!.but I hope it would have given them cool thoughts about delivery! I  Was very scared of this normal delivery and I was expecting to have a C section as I did not get pain. After examining me, I still remember that disappointing moment, when my doctor, Balakumari mam declared,”admit her to normal section!” My god I was panicked and confused how is it possible without pain. Around 7.45 PM went to the theatre and at 8.30 PM she was born. Yeah its really a medical miracle!  May be for 20 Minutes would have felt the real pain and those were the toughest moments for Selva, consoling me and helping me to go ahead! Yes! Doctor preferred husband to be there throughout the process than mother. I thank her for that decision and also taking the right decision of going for normal delivery against all odds and complications I have!  I still remember that moment, I kissed her for the first time. She cried very loudly and no one could calm her. Selva said, “I think she would be more talkative than you!” Yeah that’s true!

Talkative nature! Its in-built with me and with her! Now after Joining SRM I have learnt to be calm with students and with co-faculties to an extent! Coming back to my daughter, Since my childhood, though I have two brothers and I am in good rapport with them, I always wish I had a sister. Have envied my friends having sister. Brothers are a good support but they don’t converse for long. And yes even Selva, being a lovable and responsible husband could not fill that void gap.   Yeah! she could only fill that void gap and talk with me like a sister I never had! She gives very easy solutions for even tough problems and encourages me whatever I do with her innocent mind!  I have seen her talking proudly about me to her friends and to my sis-in-law’s daughters.  Of course, without she noticing me listening to these conversations!    

She also gives me lot of troubles, test my patience and make me go wild! I have even felt relaxed when she goes for dance classes so that I do my jobs at home peacefully but crossing more than half a day yesterday was  the most difficult part and that’s why you are also undergoing the pain of reading this post!

Anyways thanks for reading and sharing my pain. Feeling better and will be back to the same old joy-mode tomorrow 😊  Could not get a good title  even after coming to the end of the post,  so giving this bad title, “A Random Post”!

Subalalitha