Call it a pendulum?

Just got settled with the laptop to write about the two words I hate the most. Right now I am a home maker at UK , so have ample time to enjoy almost everything I desired. Cooking, blogging, day dreaming, singing and sometimes researching NLP. Will write about my UK experience some time later as I am yet to visit more places .Other than Milton Keynes (the city we reside) and Oxford, I have no idea about UK .So only imbibing the ambience I dwell right now and waiting to write about the same later. Think I have got into another loop of thought .shall I use break; statement ?hee hee java konjam konjam muje maalum hai(greatest injustice done to my mother tongue and Hindi...forgive me !)This is a big prob with me.I start writing something but end up writing something else .My mind is such a brisk monkey. It never stays at a place so do my writings.OMG! Look at this I have entered into another loop of thought! So breaking all the loops and getting into the matter straight.

Actually the word pendulum in the Title does not matter much. The word ,”it” matters a lot. Yes the pronoun ,”it”.Will come to the It part of it later before that do u know RC circuits? Yeah the circuits involving resistors and capacitors but they don’t have any contributions to this post/article. But just thought of stealing their abbreviations to denote those two killer words. I mean the words Religion and Caste. I literally forgot the effects of RC circuits built with resistors and capacitors studied during my BE but I know the circuits built with religion and caste are so dangerous.

I don’t know when these kind of thoughts got induced into me. I don’t know why I hate the RC circuit may be because of its usage as business tool whose output is always destruction of the society. I would like to quote here Mr.Kamalhasan’s dialogue in vasool Raja MBBS film.”Kadavul illannu solravana nambu;kadavul irukkunu solravanakooda nambu aana naanthaan kadavulnu solravana nambaatha”.Wonderful dialogue.Yeah its true.And I don decipher how people believe blindly those people whose job is only to deceive people in the name of god. What irritates me the most is that, the way the superstitious ideas are seeded into human hearts in the name of god. I don’t mean the rituals that have scientific proof as Albert Einstein says,” Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind.” I mean the many stupid stuffs like slaughters done through the rituals be it animals or be it humans, the killing of rationale thoughts out of human brain etc.


What I believe is that,there are no divisions among gods. We accept and have made the technology, medicines, fashion, entertainment and even food as a common thing. I have seen my friends mentioning Thai and Chinese cuisines as their favorite cusines in orkut.But we still say no to a common religion .. I can see all the religions have a common thread running throughout. They all preach the Be good Do good policy.I remember the words from panjali sabatham which says,”tharmaththin vaazhvathanai soothu kavvum;tharmam marupadi vellum”.I strongly believe dharma is the god throughout. I have felt it umpteen times. When I do/think good ,it results in some nice things else the other way round.I don't try to depict myself as a good girl here as i strongly believe that I don't have the rights to do it by myself …I am just writing what I think. Of course nobody can be a perfect individual. Only thing I can do is to maintain the Good: Bad ratio properly.Ada ada ada.!!!.ore thoughtsa kottuthu…mandaikulla kaliman valam jaasthi..athoda effectunga….okies …..Back to business..

I do understand that the religion evolved as a system local to the society where it formed .The sangam literature says gods vary with the landscapes. For instance ,Lord Murugan is the god of the landscape kurunji which is surrounded by mountains and kotravai is the god of landscape paalai which is surrounded by desert .But now the scenario is completely diff.Globalization rules us .The hair style of Hollywood actress and the hair style of my friend in Tamil Nadu are identical. So where lies the prob?I feel Man took religion in his hands to maintain discipline amidst society but he never knew that time that the religion will take him in its hands and destroy him or at least his rational thoughts. What a Pity?

And regarding the second component of RC circuit, I don’t see any difference between the first and the second component. I perceive it as only the descendent or the subdivision of the first component. I was twelve year old child then; I was asked to take bath after having touched a lady at our native place .Thats when I came to know the influence of the damn second component in the society. I use to pester my dad with so many questions before my marriage. Now Selva is the victim.I use to ask dad why they give admissions to degree courses based on caste and not based on economic conditions. Still I have the guilty feeling for having got two degrees thru MBC quota.Thats why I din wanna apply for Masters in India and tried for Masters in US. But I din get any admits in US due to my poor marks in GRE. Thank god they din have this quota thing in PhD admissions .I want atleast my child not to have that guilty feeling. Now the “it” thing enters the post at last.

I know talking about the title at the end of the post sounds so stupid. But could not help. I have seen some movies getting ended with the dialogues as their titles. I may write/talk whatever I want .But when it comes to reality do I have the freedom? Yes I do .But do I use it .No.Why? Fear for the elders and society?May be. I pray god at home and perform rituals when asked by parents or in-laws. I go to temple. I wear the mugamoodi always(if u have read my post titled mugamoodi u wud understand what I mean).The feeling which I cannot describe or christen it so left it as a question mark in the title..yes the title it.I am not able to call myself as a theist or an atheist. Not able to fix me in one position that’s why my dear it is like a pendulum. I like Mrs.Suhasini’s dialogue in the film vaseegara.Here it goes.”Manushanthan mothalla porathaan.sambrathaayam illa”.

Now here in UK I don’t perform rituals but have a krishnar idol which I see as a portrayal of dharma not as a god of Hindu religion.Atleast I am quite comfortable with the point that I am an atheist who believes dharma as god ,the super power that rules the humanity.Dharamam eppothum vellum.(Truth always triumps).

P.S:The article/post is all about my views only.I don't mean to hurt anyone or their views which may be controversial to mine.